Archive for September, 2006
The Pursuit of Happiness
I’m lonely. Very.
I’m not a “go-getter”. And when I try, I spend more time talking to voicemails than anything else.
For once, I’d like to be the one being persued.
Creepy people don’t count.
Figuring People Out: Part 4
And in the end, just talk to people. Most things can be figured out and smoothed over. Ug, I should just communicate more.
Figuring People Out: Part 3
So maybe CRy is right, maybe I am being played like a fiddle. It’s so frustrating, you know? Being told over and over for 9 months, “you should move in”, and responding with, “I want to, it’s just not time yet”. Then when I’m finally to a place where I can say yes (regardless of [...]
Happy Drugs: Update
Well, I’m having good periods of time, so that’s good. Although, the bad periods of time are still as bad. I’m only at 10mg/day, but everything I’ve read says the dosage is 20mg+/day, so I don’t know. I do know that I can’t sleep worth a hoot. It takes me an [...]
Figuring People Out: Part 2
In the process of telling JCy I’d move in (if things work out that way) I said that it wasn’t about finances, but, rather, if he wanted me to. I think that was my main point. I wanted it to matter. Of course, I didn’t get an official, “I want you to [...]
Weekend in Review
So where to start…
Happy Med update. I still have downs, but at least I’m having ups now. :)
Got to have at 2-hour-long conversation with MSn on Friday night. It’s amazing how for an entire weekend we can be shitty with each other, then a couple weeks later, make such progress in deepening our friendship. Oh [...]
Happy Drugs
Okay, so I’m not sure how fast these happy drugs are supposed to work (I’ve read up to 8 weeks), but I noticed a difference in 18 hours. I’m holding out official judgement until it’s been a week, but still. I guess I’ll keep blogging to note the difference.
Speaking of differences, I have a hard [...]
Sick
Eww, I was sick today. It wasn’t the Crohn’s, but like the flu or food poisoning. I’ve been like this before, but it was back at the begining of the year. I start burping and it tastes like something crawled in my stomach and died (yeah, I know, it’s gross). So I missed work, but [...]
Figuring People Out
It’s amazing how even a slight change in perspective can reveal a multitude/plethora/(insert big word here) of insight into things.
Take JCy for instance:
When I’m given even the slightest chance to step back a bit from my obsession/infatuation, I see what the underlying problem really is. It’s not so much the quantity, it’s the quality. [...]
I Can See Clearly Now
I can see clearly now, the rain is gone
I can see obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that held me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.
I think I can make it now, the pain is gone
All of the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is the rainbow I’ve been prayin’ for
It’s gonna [...]